So I am building up more enthusiasm about this blogging again.  Somewhere to unload my frustrations, somewhere to let others know what's happening if they so choose and in case I missed someone in letting them know,  but also somewhere to create a story that follows a theme of my choosing.

I said already I dislike using words like path and journey.  I'd rather be into construction.  Under that theme I guess I want to demonstrate some level of control and course building in getting to an end point, whether that's just a big dud or something amazing.  So what's the outcome going to look like and how to best get there?

Already I have people rallying for me.  I was able to tell my kids what's happening to the level I know.  Lots of uncertainty but that the next couple of years will be rough.  They are on there way to Ottawa to see Jean at the end of her road.  What she put in place before that was extraordinary.  Trips to Europe and Asia.  Getting herself to New Zealand.  Land trips by train then ship to Alaska.  Visits with family and friends between Ottawa and Toronto, time away with her best friend on Manitoulin Island.

I switch gears there, but the point is, I can make choices.  I have already been reviewing all my affairs to line things up for others to take charge of when needed.  I felt a need to do this now so that I could let that go and get on with living in a 'constructive' way.  That can happen.  I am thinking travel - by train.  I will start with a train trip to Ottawa to see Jean one more time.